reflecting on the past month

The last few weeks at work have been particularly challenging. All of August was challenging.

I’m not sure if I’ve ever been so stretched and so exhausted in all my working life so far. Operating on not enough sleep, I’m surprised I never had more than one large coffee per day. There were probably one or two days I didn’t have any.

But changes are happening, improvements are being made, and overall I’m still pretty optimistic. Some would say it’s impossible for me to not be optimistic, regardless of the situation or objective outlook.

I’ve been wondering about people who quit their jobs, and move on to other things. I’ve been wondering about the people who stay and persevere. Even after my longest, most trying days, I know there are people with more demanding occupations. I’ve been wondering about their driving forces and their last straws.

There have probably been a lot of studies on this — what will people compromise on, and what will they insist on? — but this must be different for everyone, and this must surely change with time.

I’ve been wondering about how other people would manage in my position. I’ve been wondering about what might be different — better or worse. I know I have the resilience and endurance, along with the experience and skill. But there must always be improvements.

Still, we can’t look so far ahead that we forget about the present; we mustn’t be so focused on change that we don’t acknowledge what’s working well. And we must remember that people are people, not machines.

It’s time to begin, isn’t it?
I get a little bit bigger but then I’ll admit,
I’m just the same as I was.
Now don’t you understand,
I’m never changing who I am

— Imagine Dragons

6 thoughts on “reflecting on the past month

  1. I’m sorry you’re having a rough time. I’ve had the impression (from your blog) that your work was satisfying to you. (And maybe “was” is the operative word here?)

    • The impression you had is correct. For the most part, I do get a lot of satisfaction from my work, and I enjoy it more than my colleagues would believe possible. I suppose this is my usual “thinking about everything every which way”. Also, I’m still learning a lot about being a manager, and realising I can do more than I thought I could

      • Yes, you are modest by nature (I was just discussing with someone how talent and confidence are not always matched; some people are very confident when they shouldn’t be and vice versa). I totally get revisiting things regularly.

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